The conversation went as any usual end-of-the-year conversation goes:
“Wow, I can’t believe another year has flown by!”
“I know, it’s crazy! What are your resolutions this year?”
“Hmm… I haven’t thought about it much but I would love to finally lose some weight.” … *shoves entire muffin in mouth*
And as I chewed, my friend went on to tell me that she was determined to lose weight too. She was going to start a new Beachbody on Demand program called Barre Blend. So naturally, I agreed to do it with her and knowing that it was a couple weeks away, proceeded to eat sometimes TWICE DAILY desserts and wallow in the self pity and guilt that followed.
The day I started this workout program was the day my life changed. I almost puked, twice, and had to pause the video a handful of times to catch my breath but I pushed through and I finished it. I was feeling motivated for once in my life, and I was also feeling happy. Endorphins were pumping.
Fast forward a few weeks of 5x a week workouts and I began to see real results. I dialed in on my nutrition and was losing 2-3 pounds per week. But the best result of all was the shift in mindset that I was experiencing.
It was as if little things that would have bothered me before didn’t bother me at all. I let them go. I breathed through challenges of every day life like I would breathe through the burn at the barre. I felt like an entirely new person.
I started implementing self-care rituals into my everyday life and falling into a routine.
I looked at myself in the mirror with kindness.
I created time in my schedule for hobbies, new and old, that made me feel young again.
I started asking myself what I needed and putting myself first.
I got over the guilt that came with being “selfish” and realized I was actually being selfless. My kids were getting a way better version of myself than they were 6 weeks ago – they could wait 5 minutes for their goldfish refill.
I was standing in the shower after a grueling workout, when it dawned on me. This wasn’t an option, it was a calling. An unshakable feeling down to the very last cell in my body that I had to share my passion for self-care and personal development with the world. I had no idea, in that moment, that my life would change forever. Or even more shockingly, just how much it would change…
It has been just over 4 months since that first workout, and I am writing this blog post. I still can’t believe I started a BLOG – a life-long dream of mine that I kept putting off due to lack of time and resources.
I am 32 pounds lighter and counting. I am in the middle of my third round of Barre Blend and I am now coaching others through their home-workout programs. I was also just accepted to college to finish my Bachelors degree in creative writing online.
I have learned to love myself and in return, the universe is loving me right back. I hope this serves as a reminder that it is never too late for you to do the same.